Being the Baby, Not so BAD!

My brother Stephen’s 21st birthday is tomorrow, and I am so excited but I have not decided how it makes me feel yet. Should I feel younger or older? Should I wonder where the time went? Should I wish I could be there to celebrate? All these questions have been burning in my mind all week. I have not found substantial solutions, but I have decided that all these questions apply. I mean, why wouldn’t they?

For a little background; I have two older siblings. Christina who was born January, 9th 1986, and Stephen who was born March 27th, 1988. Just so you know, I was born November 11th, 1989, the day the Berlin wall was knocked down, but that is beside the point. I am really close to my brother and sister. However, our relationships differ. I am closer to Christina when she is not near me, therefore I call her and talk to her frequently. Stephen on the other hand, is the opposite. When he is visiting we are tied at the hip, but when he is not, I don’t talk to him much. This is ok with me because we both don’t really enjoy talking on the phone. A good text message a couple times a week is just enough. Anyway, let me answer my burning questions.

Should I wish I could be there to celebrate?
Duh. It is his 21st birthday, who wouldn’t want to celebrate that? Going out and getting some tea and milk would be fun. Besides, I love birthdays. If you are not cool, I am the person who calls you at midnight to wake you up and say happy birthday. If you are cool, and I don’t have to wake you up, then I will sing. Since, I my brother and I are not big phone talkers, he can expect a very good text message.

Should I wonder where the time went?
Absolutely not! Life comes at you fast, be prepared. Not to mention, I do not miss the time when I was getting picked on, or hockey pucks chucked at me when my brother was practicing his shot. It is so much better now than it used to be, even though I see my brother a mere once a year. That’s a stinker, but with Skype, I can see him every night. I know, not the same, but when you live 1223.4 miles apart from your big brother, almost anything would suffice.

Should I feel younger or older?
Ok, this is a toughie. I have friends that have already turned 21 or even older, but it is different with them. It is cool to see my brother get older, but then it makes me feel older, but at the same time, I feel like such a baby. I have celebrated my sisters 21st, and four of my other friends 21st birthdays, and let me tell you, nothing makes me feel more “little” than that. However, I can always come back with, “I will be celebrating 50 later than you.” Yeah, lame, but when the day comes when they are all “over the hill” I won’t be. Feels good to be younger. I am going to embrace my baby sister and friend status.