F.I.N.E.

I began this week expecting it to be very busy and quite full. In my planner I had written down several things that are due this week, specifically all the things I thought I had due for Computer Science. I had expected a case study, two homework assignments, 30 pages of reading, a quiz, and the midterm to be done in the time period of Thursday to Sunday. However, as I was beginning my Case Study with my partner, I discovered that there is no Computer Science homework this week. No quiz, no reading, no homework projects, instead, I just have to complete the case study and study and take the midterm. What a relief! I even passed my biology exam with decent colors after completely failing my first attempt.

Last week was a terrible week. It was filled with exams and exhaustion, and frustration with everything. I was expecting that this week would be the same, but with one less test. To my surprise this week is changing views. It is clearing out beautifully. I have only been in college one and half semesters, but I always seem to assume that some weeks will be good and some will be bad. Then I wonder, why do I decide a week is going to be bad or good before it even begins? It never concludes with the results that I had anticipated in the first place. I am dropping a class this week too. For the first time in my life, I have discovered my boundaries and know how far I can push them. I decided breaking boundaries, is defeating the point of boundaries anyway. Why would a person set boundaries if they were going to bust through them? Does not make much sense, does it.

This week that was expected to be bad, is going to be just fine. Yes, fine does mean freaked out, insecure, neurotic, and emotional, but this is college, in Iowa for that matter, can better than ‘fine’, really happen? Probably, but I only work for what is in rational terms. Still, I am shooting to experiment with this word called optimism. I already have some, but now I want to strive for severe optimism, which turns into sarcasm, and eventually into entertainment. Life is so short, it should be a wildly entertaining amusement park. So, with that said, I am going to look for the best in this week and enjoy all the rides. Let’s start with the bumper cars.